I will not nurse her. I will not nurse this cranky girl. On the bed she cries. I can’t stand the screaming and my husband is worthless. He made me upset so I will let him beg for me to nurse that crying cranky infant baby on the bed. This is mother’s power. We have life in our breasts.

Another screen door. It has a lock. It can be locked. Goes back and forth. Swing hard or slow.

Bathroom door with the lock inside. on your right.

Susah banget cari perawan jaman sekarang ini. Tau gak? Aku tuh pinginnya nikan sama perawan,, titik. Aku gak mau barang bekas. Ha.. Kebayang gak kalo kita menikah sama orang yang gak perawan, Bisa jadi mereka punya penyakit menular seksual. Gak perawan juga jadi bukti kalau dia gak bisa kontrol hawa nafsu, gak sabar nunggu resmi menikah sebelum berhubungan seks.

“Jujur, aku tidak tahu siapa mereka. Aku bangun pagi ini di rumah sakit. Ada seorang pria yang terbangun karena aku batuk. Tenggorokanku kering. Lalu dia bilang oalah nduk, puji tuhan wis tangi. mamamu isik ning kamar mandi. Aku enggak mengenali apa yang dia katakan. Yang aku tahu, dia menyebut kata tuhan, dan kamar mandi.

Yuu, do you still fast every Monday and Friday? I don’t do that anymore. I need to come up with a fasting idea that will work here. You probably will read this letter in the middle of fasting month. Tell me in your letter if you also fast for one month like our neighbours.

Look at her.. She’s enjoying herself. Kids are at school, a red teacup on a square wooden trivot on a wooden desk on the right side, about 30 cm away from her pink computer. Hear her fingers tap tap tapping? She’s writing her second blog post in her new website.