Indonesian in America

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Obsession 1

Look at my handsome granboy. My grandgirl oh so cute. There she is. My daughter she has beautiful girl and handsome boy. How lucky I am. I should take a picture of them and send that to my friends. Oh look at their smooth white skin. My grandchildren will be movie stars back home. And there is my son in law. He is a kind person. My daughter didn’t say much about him but I’m glad she’s happy with him. Is she still nursing my grandgirl? Mother’s power is on her breasts, only her can provide food for her baby. Fathers do not have breasts. Fathers, husbands make money, provide for the family.

I will not nurse her. I will not nurse this cranky girl. On the bed she cries. I can’t stand the screaming and my husband is worthless. He made me upset so I will let him beg for me to nurse that crying cranky infant baby on the bed. This is mother’s power. We have life in our breasts.

Oh oh oh grandgirl don’t cry. Ha ha silly grandgirl, she thinks I am her mother. Look at her looking for my breasts. These has no milk. These can’t provide food for you. Wouldn’t it be funny if I can nurse my grandgirl? Why is my daughter don’t smile when I said that idea to her? Now where is my husband. He should take pictures here. Pictures of me this fancy house of my daughter’s husband. Pictures of me and my grandgirl when she’s not screaming. Pictures of me with my daughter when we both smile. Must smile. I will take his pictures too. His smile is bad. Too tense.

Your dad was upset. He threw TV remote control. Yes he’s like that. He bangs doors, He destroy things. You see that yourself, right? Like last night. How’s the ice cream? Is it good? Mine is good too. Let’s stay on the tree’s shadows. Our walk home is still a bit away. Your dad has a temper. That’s his flaws too. But his brain. He is very smart. I like smart people you see. That’s why I married him. I pity him for his flaws. Ok, this is a secret. Can you keep a secret? Good. Don’t tell your dad we were having a good time shopping. Don’t tell him we had ice cream too. We can throw the ice cream’s cups and spoons in somebody’s trash bin. We’ll have ice cream again sometimes. Your dad never understand me.

Where is your mother? Here is your mother. How beautiful, Does my daughter know that she has power. A power her husband envy? I have books on my lap. Why did she put books on my lap? To read to my grandson she say before she nurse. I never read books to kids. I read books for work. Maybe I can show something in internet, someone who read this book, so we can listen together. How do I read books… loudly? Is it literally loudly? Silly daughter. no screen time for kids. Nothing’s wrong with watching TV. I’d better take pictures of my daughter nursing. She refused to smile. Who’s going to take my picture reading to my grandson? My husband is nowhere to be found when he is mostly needed.

Your dad loves you. He washed all the diaper cloths when you were little. He worked hard morning till night. He loves you. Of course he loves you. Of course I love you. Of course we love you. How’s school? Fine? Good. Study good so you can enter state’s university. That’s all the matter of school years. Go to college, get a job, get married, have children.

Am I the only one in this house who cares that my grandson can’t read yet? And nobody teach him to play chess. My grandson is handsome except for the mole on his chin. He will need surgery to remove that mole. A simple surgery I’m sure. Simple. Now my daughter is asleep in bed with my grandgirl. Such beautiful pose. I will take a few pictures. This is a sweet scene. My friends will be jealous of me. I will take my grandkids to my offices, my husband’s office. I have a good life, satisfied, and a few more pictures for now.